It has been a tidal wave of random shit the past few months.
Today, I am making a conscious choice to feel better. It's not like I haven't made a choice to feel better lately either, lol. I just woke up with a child knee-on-kneeing me and thought to myself, HOLY CRAP, it begins...and it's only 7:30.
"I can't think of it like this. This isn't shitty. She's being playful. It's an accident."
CONSCIOUS CHOICES.
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I played WoW a decent amount last night to detach myself from everything painful that was going on. It did the job. I raided and although I didn't actually find 'happiness' in LFRing, it did the job in providing me something else to focus on aside from grief.
What's really funny is that I seem to perform better the sadder I am and the more I try to 'forget' about being so sad. It's like, my body does this thing where I 'try harder' in hopes to hyper focus to not feel.
The dps below wasn't actually all that impressive.
After this boss fight, this Shaman started messaging me and we had a good laugh. He was geared similarly to me (literally, I think we have the same iLvl) and was complimenting my dps. I think it's funny that with some people, you have to 'beat' them for them to have any respect for you. Why can't we just respect people for being people? It blows my mind.
Anyway, I asked why he didn't ever die in AoE pulls. I was getting frustrated because of the tanking ability. Some of the tanks that we had brought were more than adequately geared yet the threat generation was bupkiss. If a tank is expecting to tank a LFR that requires a certain iLvl to join, they should be able to handle the threat generation coming from the team.
The funny part was that I was dying like crazy yesterday. I usually have better survivability, but dear lord, the poor tanks just couldn't get enough aggro on the adds. I was tempted to switch specs and just fucking tank the shit myself. If i'm already getting hit, I may as well have better survivability, hahahaha.
Anyway, Chinta, this draenei Shaman, mentioned that they have an aoe aggro drop ability on short CD. THAT is retarded. SERIOUSLY, he would do a significant amount of aoe damage and NOT even get high on threat. I did the same thing, had to soulshatter, and within seconds, have to fucking demonic sacrifice, unending resolve, then stack my healthstone & dark regeneration, and HOPE - just HOPE that it's enough to live through the beating that my little cloth wearer will take.
Lots of deaths.
I wish you could just switch to Dark Apotheosis in a snap instead of having to spec switch - like a stance in all trees, except the spells would slightly vary. I guess it would make the game TOO complex, but it would be awesome if they actually made it a viable tanking spec. :P I would do it, seriously. If there's any warlock that would - I would. I'm not that confident in tanking, but I'm pretty confident @ warlocking. <3
Like seriously? That's pretty fucking cool. I know she's a gnome. I know gnomes aren't really 'cool' lol, but she's fucking badass. MAN, DEMWINGS!
Sometimes I want to race change her to being a blood elf - but honestly, lets be real. Who would really support that? I don't even know if deep down, I could. My warlock has looked the same for 10 years, hahahaha. I partially did that on purpose because initially, I had intended to play my Night Elf hunter, Eribus (who's now Michié on hyjal). She was my first actual character on NZ. I couldn't bring myself to play a NE, funny enough - so I made a gnome warrior (that looks exactly like my lock) and twinked her at 19. I had so much fun pvping on her at 19 that I left her there. Then I made a dwarf priest (and I SWEAR i thought I would level her...) but she was so ugly that I ended up race changing her after about 30 levels or so a few years later.
Anyway, my point was - Tamayo, an old NO MOO friend of mine explained why it felt so good to beat up on Taurens or other Horde (Hoorde) as a gnome. "There's nothing more satisfying than giving grief (in pvp) to an enemy as a Gnome. It's the biggest slap in the face because we can't even reach their faces. It's like, 'you got beat by a gnome. a girl gnome with princess leia buns. you fail.'"
I never agreed with that last part, "you fail." mentality. Dald would say that shit too. If I would beat him in something, he would say, "oh man I am fucking terrible...". SERIOUSLY, maybe you were having an off day. Maybe you're not a good player. More realistically though, had it ever occurred to them that they weren't being terrible and that I had just done a good job? JESUS, men are so retarded sometimes. I know I may look like a girl and lets be honest - act super girly sometimes, but I am no novice to gaming. I HATE that shit!! LOL!! It makes me want to 'play' that part and pretend like I never know anything about anything because I'm tired of the 'oh GOD I SUCK because this girl beat me' bullshit. You don't suck, I'm just better sometimes. Sometimes I suck really bad too. We're always going to find people who are more skilled or have better gear. We shouldn't judge ourselves harshly because they're doing well. I just strive to be more like them and to learn from them. GOOD FOR THEM. They're fucking badass with their fucking best in slot gear. I HOPE that I can be relatively similar at some point.
It's part of gaming. Lots of this shit is PROC based (especially this expansion).
I hate proc and love it too. It's a weird combination. It's so unpredictable, but sometimes when I get everything to proc at once, It feels like fucking Christmas.
"I HAVE TO SHOOT SOMETHINGOMGOGMOMG."
Oh dear Lord, especially on my hunter when she was Beast Mastery. Fucking shit would light up all the time like a rave and I wanted to press everything. My kids would be playing in the play room and Izzy would run in saying, "Mommy are you okay? You're smashing the keyboard!" hahahahahaha
OKAY speaking of Proccing, LMAO, now to get back on point.
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I had an okay time LFRing. It's never my favorite thing to do in this game. I know, what? I used to love raiding before. It's not a confidence issue, it's a boredom thing because we used to raid with a whole group of friends and now it's just two of us and the people in LFR are somewhat special sometimes. I'm not being judgmental, I'm being honest. Since it's random placement based on gear item level, the raids are often a mix of skilled and unskilled players. It's a buffet of manliness.
LOL
It's not that I don't have fun with Andy. I totally do. I wouldn't be raiding if I wasn't raiding with a friend. If I were alone, there would absolutely no point, legendary cloak or not. I'd rather be doing other things. LFRing is just not the most fun we could be having in the game.
Don't get me wrong, some of the bosses are fun. I have a special word that most often times speaks to me, "Mechanics". Being a game design major, I usually love learning new mechanics of boss fights & game play. I'm drawn to learning different elements needed to complete quests, scenarios, or boss fights. It's fun. Some of the boss fights in this expansion make me want to rip someones jugular out of their neck though.
Like, there is this one boss fight where you have to kill this fucking metal machine-like scorpion that spits out tar and fire then decides to fucking chuck you like dirty underwear.
I STILL don't even know the mechanic in this game. Maybe I'm just that retarded, but I seem to die at every single encounter with this asshole. Last night was the first night that I hadn't died - but to my luck, my internet had decided to shit the bed mid-boss fight. I probably would have died.
There's also another boss fight where you fight this guy called the Sha of Pride. People get trapped in these thingies and you have to (i think....) stand on these circles where they're trapped until they get untrapped. I have no idea really how this works. I don't know how it impacts the boss or his health, resistances, etc. I have absolutely no idea how it actually correlates to the outcome of this boss fight other than provides an added element of difficulty - instead of just being a 'tank and spank'. I do well on this boss fight (if i'm not dead) usually, but I greatly dislike it for being the way it is.
Good incentives in would would be:
1) Time based ones: that depending on the duration of untrapping players, the outcome would be varied:
A) Very fast: that it would allow the players to be buffed.
B) Normal: it would trigger more adds to spawn
C) Very Slow: that the boss would mini enrage and start one shotting people
Incentives. COME ON, MAN. Items to use on the boss, buffs, debuffs, movement, time, special grouping, specific classes needed (or abilities). Incentives to perform well!
YEESH. YEEESH.
Yes my super nerd just exposed itself a little, but I'm really passionate about it. I feel like if I'm paying fucking $15 bucks a month and fucking thousands of dollars in to Blizzard over the span of 10 years, you better be providing me incentive game play. I'm fucking PAYING for it.
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OKAY I'm sorry - I totally went on longer than I wanted to about that.
My point was, I wasn't having super fun in LFR, but Andy and I went to the Timeless Isles just to play around with my offspec (demonology, but specifically Dark Apotheosis) after raiding. It's a warlock-tanking spec. Completely nonviable, but super fun. Anyway, we were kinda competing for aggro while killing elites. It was seriously the most I've laughed and smiled in a long time (in this game). I know, fucked up, hey? Causing a good friend misery is not so nice. I wasn't trying to cause misery. It's just the fact that it's crazy threat generation and I wasn't even really using it properly to play 'fair'.
What I mean is that, I have a taunt and his prot warrior has a taunt as well. My taunt and his taunt are quite different though as mine is 'Provocation' and I use it to taunt the target right off the bat. It allows my concurrent spells to build threat significantly faster. It basically exponentially grows my threat through normal spells. Also, I can use it as a normal 'taunt' considering its' short cooldown. His taunt works just as a taunt - where if the target looks a player, he can make it look back at him but it doesn't increase his threat generation.
We made an agreement to take 'taunt' off our bars. I didn't really remove it, but I just didn't use it past that point.
It actually caused me to really have to try hard to generate good threat, hahahaha. He would win most of the time. I know, big surprise, the protection warrior gets more aggro. The effort it took was ridiculous. I know, it's kind of not fair - considering he is a prot warrior, but we made the agreement, because if I had used my taunt right off the bat, it would've been pretty difficult for any tanking class for that matter, to pull aggro off of me. The threat generation is quite substantial. It's fun! :P Not to mention, her survivability is significantly higher in that stance because It automatically reduces my physical damage by 14% and magic damage by 15%. I also have Aura of Enfeeblement (curse of weakness that is now an aura and fucking amazing) that's essentially a demoralizing shout aura that reduces melee damage by 10% and speeds up my cast time by 50%. Basically lets me spam those high threat generating spells TWICE AS FAST!! YES. YES. YES. I'm essentially in shitty plate, hahahaha.
Anyway, I had a ton of fun playing around in the last hour of just messing around with this off spec. I don't know what was fun more, the misery of making Andy frustrated by providing him a challenge or the fact that I was indeed pulling off of him and tan.... surviving fine. I can't even bring myself to say the word, HAHAHAHA. :P
K sorry about this long winded post. I had a lot of happy going on and had to vent it out. :)
I foresee much more playing around with this spec in the near future. :P
xo
M
