GOD, I'm upset.
I'm so angry & frustrated. Actually, I'm sad first and foremost, angry, frustrated, and disappointed.
There is a fire in my heart that burns and not in a good way.
It's not always like this, truly. I've been happier lately. I just have off days. Today is Canadian Thanksgiving. There should be a boatload of things I should be thankful for, and I am - essentially thankful for things...and not at the same time.
I'm fucking pissed and tired of being happy for everyone else. Reminding everyone of all the good points in life and being their fucking compass to happiness. I'm sick of being a beacon of godforsaken light for the world. I feel like Nicholas fucking Cage in "City of Angels". Don't ask. I'm a fucking cheeseball romantic and it's a good movie. I don't know how that made any sense, but it did in the moment. (he just wants to be human)
Iain: You're a strong lady, you just dun give yourself enough credit
Michie: I'm not that strong - just strong for others. YOU know what I'm like because you're the same way.
Iain: That takes more strength than being strong for yourself
Michie: I guess so? It sucks to feel broken so much though.
Iain: The broken ones are the ones who change the world, cherie. We are not held in one shape, we can reform ourselves however we like.
Michie: This epiphany has not struck me yet. I hear what you're saying, but can't agree or disagree. I haven't leveled up enough irl
I can't shape myself to 'how I like'. I'm the way I am. JUST me. I will always be overly compassionate, loving, and have a GODFORSAKEN rescuer complex.
SOMEONE FUCKING PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY because I CAN'T STOP.
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So things I do to feel better:
Read WoW pick up lines:
"Despite being specced into IMPROVED DISCIPLINES, its never long until I FLURRY. I’ll make one LAST STAND before I end up SUNDERING myself and you’re left waiting for my SECOND WIND."
"Okay click it. Now click it again! Keep clicking until she comes!"
"Hey I completely understand if you like to go both ways, I can turn into a buff male demon every 5 minutes just for you."
"Relationships come and go, but STDs are BoP"
"Everyone knows we don’t need pick-up lines, every good paladin knows how to use his hands."
"Long ago my blessings only lasted 5 mins, now I can go for 30."
"Are you a warlock? Cause your ass is on FIRE"
"Hey baby, are you a jewelcrafter? Cause your eyes look like pristine sapphires."
"Do you have Omen installed? Cause you're on top of my threat meter."
"My Heart is BoP and you just rolled Need"
"Wanna take my Swift Pink Hawkstrider for a ride?"
"Hey Baby, you can summon my Imp!"
"Want to touch my Staff of Rampant Growth?"
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k i'm going to try to not hate everything ever and attempt to queue for 15 minutes for a fucking 5 minute heroic so I can get RE-exalted with shit that I was already exalted with.
THERE IS NO XO's when the fire rages this hard.
M
