This is gonna probably be a tmi post but I'm venting because I know it'll help me better in the long run.
Warning, I am super pmsing. My bitchy side is on fuuuuulllll blast.
Periods. The bane of all evil. Why do we have to have them? We were blessed with this ability to shed our inner lining to provide a fresh and adhesive wall for fertilized eggs to attach. We shed the lining like a snake sheds its' skin in all it's goriest glory.
Not to totally epitomize a typical female stereotype, but sometimes I hate men for not having to experience the "joys" of being a woman.
"Guys go through shit during puberty also!" Yeah so what? Your voice starts cracking, your penis gets bigger (aww boo hoo), you get hairy, holy shit batman horny, growth spurts, nipple sensitivity, and some pubescent anxieties. Cry me a fucking river.
Girls go through all of that (sans the penis growth), and fucking periods. Now it's not all the same for every woman. Some women, like myself, who have fucking hormonal imbalances get blessed with extra gifts from God, like proc based periods (yay me! I crit!!) and dysmenorrhea (really painful ones) that make you feel like you're preparing to fucking birth a rhino at 11 years old. Also, let's not forget to mention the normal pms shit like acne and body aches, bloating, edema, crankiness, migraines, etc. that also happen during our cycles.
I don't have a fucking cycle. I have a fucking spear and my spear chucker is throwing like Tim Lincecum (heavy handed and inaccurate. Sorry, you're hot but you've been bad lately. You're still my favourite cy young winner). I hope you get it together for the WS and they give you a chance. I have my jersey all ready. :)
...Back to my unbelievable hatred of periods.
I honestly don't think that I would hate them so much if they didn't cause me as much grief. In all actuality, the times where I have been regular, my periods haven't been all that bad. I decided to get off the pill (that I had been taking for 10 years) so I could have kids and it's been all downhill (hormonally) since then.
Since I have pcos, I can't take anything else (or have an iud inserted) because it wouldn't be enough progesterone for me. I'm not ready to be "spayed" yet (tubes being tied or hysterectomy). Plus, I really don't want a hysterectomy because it basically makes your vagina shrivel up into a dry prune. I happen to be very confident and satisfied in my anatomy down south. It would be a shame to waste it while I'm still young.
So what does that leave me with?
Fuck all.
Fuck, all.
Fuck my hormones man! If I could have rerolled as a boy instead of a girl at birth I think my life would've been significantly easier. Seriously. I would have definitely stuck out less.
Which leads to another wild and crazy random thing that happened today. I talked to Cheesecake (my old friend Shinsuke) and he's playing d3 (apparently like an addiction, lol). He couldn't believe my characters or that I even played. Part of me was flattered that he noticed how great they're becoming (or how much effort it took to get them there), but I was also slightly offended in a sense where, WTF man? What, can girls not possibly have OP characters because our breasts get in the way?? I can't possibly fucking find wasd in all the glory of my bouncing bosom. I know that's not what he meant, but why the fuck is it so surprising when my character is tougher than yours? Dear lord. Can't they just say, "that's awesome!" Vs "omfg, lol! no way? You're kidding me right?"
You're kidding me. You are a joke to mankind. God I'm such a pmsing angry bitch right now, and I totally will apologize tomorrow for it, but in the moment, I'm a manhater. Fucking autocorrect almost made me type I'm a fucking manatee. Yes, that too.
I need to sleep.
xo
M
