Jiichan

My grampa (Jichan) just had a stroke. He's 94 and this is his 4th in the past 5 years. They said it was a mild stroke, but he can't move his legs well anymore. It was severe enough to hurt his nerves and ability to walk. 

I was raised by him. My parents were both full timers since I was born so my grandparents have almost been more like my parents than my own parents had been. 

My heart hurts. 

It's hard to not feel like I've been repeatedly beaten by the unlucky stick. 

Reality is, this is life. Shit happens and we have to roll with it. Lately though, my evasion tanking ability got nerfed and I keep getting slammed. 

Please get better Jiichan, please. I love you and don't want to live life without you. I'm not ready yet. Please, please, please, God, if you're listening at all, please help him get better. I know it's selfish, but this is something I really want and need, for my sake and my Bachan's sake. I don't want her to be alone nor leave this world lonely. 

xo

M