OH my LAWD.
So I had this dream that I was in an IRL raid. I went with Cinti, Jeff, and Yoshi to Redridge Mountains because them and a group of like 15-20 people were raiding this cave.
It was more final fantasy 7 ish, where mobs would jump out of nowhere and start attacking you. It was really scary in that aspect.
Cinti, Jeff, and Yoshi, were all paladins in my dream. Cinti was a slightly undergeared dual wielding ret pally (i know they can't dual wield - just go with it), Jeff was a normal prot pally, Yoshi was a holy pally, and I was (believe it or not) a rogue.
There was this druid (i think his name was Sven) that was talking smack saying that paladins were useless in this raid. I guess they had gotten a huge nerf across the board. He was complaining that they were just a light show and the light show was so annoying and distracting considering we were in a cave and it would make fights more distracting/confusing and wipe us.
Despite my friends' best efforts to tell me not to talk/confront him, I confronted Sven and explained that in this 'world', the power of 'holy light' was bestowed upon their class to protect us. It was supposed to be a gift from God. In this game, despite the technical directors approving such grandiose light shows, it was essentially their responsibility to portray this bestowing of light from the grace of god, in particle effects, the best they could.
I can't remember all what I said - so I'm paraphrasing and can't do it justice. I basically word slapped him and then challenged him to a duel.
He denied me quickly. He said, "fuck no, you're a rogue. that's so lopsided it's not even funny." So I said, "FINE, let me change jobs & fight you as a paladin. If i win, you have to stop talking shit about them. If I lose, you can go on your merry way."
He agreed and I switched jobs to my paladin spec. My paladin was seriously undergeared because I hadn't chosen that class in a long time. I kinda knew going into this mess that it wasn't going to be pretty.
My friends were so worried because they knew logically that my chances of winning were significantly lowered.
I didn't care, because it was the principle of the matter.
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First fight, he completely owned me then rubbed it in.
I said, we have to do 2 out of 3 because you outgear me so heavily that it wouldn't be fair. He agreed and we started the 2nd fight.
Second fight, I popped fucking everything I had. I popped my eardrums, lol I popped everything. I ended up winning. I had stunned him 3 times and just beat the shit out of him.
Unfortunately, my friends, Sven, and I all knew that I wasn't going to win this next fight. Since I had popped everything - I had nothing left. Everything was on CD. I was going into a fight with nothing.
Starting the 3rd fight, I tried to heal through it and bubble through it, but in the end, my dps was just not enough and Sven just beat the snot out of me. It was a horrible loss.
I had lost and all the hurt, loss, embarrassment, guilt, etc was overwhelming.
"I'm sorry guys, I really tried to win for you all. Maybe he's right. Paladins just aren't cut out for this."
I got so much love from all my friends. They were just so proud of me for trying hard and winning just that once. "You WON. You may have had to blow everything and it may have been just that once, but the point is - paladins CAN win. We're nerfed right now, but it doesn't mean we're absolutely useless - and you've proved that. If anything we're more dedicated than any other class."
I was still crying from my loss.
"Look, everyone supports you."
I look up and the entire raid is cheering me on and all those who had paladins as another job had switched to the class just to support me. <3
Even Sven, shut up - didn't make fun of Paladins again.
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I guess the moral of my dream was that just because you don't feel like you're 'overpowered' in something (or life) right now doesn't mean you're inadequate. It just means you have to try harder and 'pop all your cooldowns' in real life to be where you want to be. It means you have to give life your all (100% of your effort) for the sake of yourself (your well being & self growth) and by doing that, will trickle down to everyone who loves and cares for you. You will motivate others. You will spread love & people will unanimously love & appreciate you also.
xo
M
