I went to bed (well the bedroom) early last night (10:30) to attempt to not go to sleep so late this time. I failed, lol.
I went to bed at 2:30, GUUUHHFUCK, lol.
Kesler crawled into bed at 5am looking for a snuggle.
We have to find a new snoreguard for Christopher, lol. Yes, he snores, like a mac truck.
It's okay, I have my quirks too. I kick around and move around til I get comfortable like a puppy in a bed and I HAVE to have to have blankets (the heavier the better). Chris is like dying from heatstroke as I'm cozy in a little cocoon, lol. Tough cookies man, you get to sleep next to a half naked lady, hahahahaha.
Despite not getting as much sleep today, I actually feel slightly more energized.
I have to go fix an elderly couple's computer this morning and Grama will be picking up the kids and taking them to Ogoplay (an indoor obstacle course place for kids). Hooray! They love that place. We go more often in the winter when the parks and outdoor stuff are too cold to play in.
First day of major frost.
I woke up and everything outside was WHITE. Not snow white, but the grass and everything was white. White frost in Canada is not like Californian frost. Don't get me wrong, I had frost in San Jose - I even had to scrape the windshield regularly in the winter time (in the mornings), but this frost stays. In California, I could've expected the frost to be gone by like 9am, lol...and by 11, it usually went up to the 50's.
It is literally -3°C, or 26°F. Yes, it's fucking cold. It's Fall. When it's winter time, it gets to -20°C here, about -4°F. Prior to living in Canada, I couldn't even fathom what it was like to be less than 32°F tbh. I rarely encountered days where it was in the 20's. Now, I'm acclimatized. It's 20's-30's-40's in fall and in the winter, it's like -5-20°F.
I know that sounds shitty or that it sucks, but it's awesome. It's not like we're going out in regular jeans and a hoodie in that weather. Layering brings cute fall fashion, hahaha.
Like this:
Can't wait to bring out my boots and thermal leggings again. Can't wait. I have so many. :)
OHHH SPEAKING of can't wait...my hair is growing quite long. No seriously, it's down to my mid-back now. I know crazy!! My Japanese side grows head hair like nothing else. Super fast.
I was thinking of Ombre'ing my hair again blonde, but it's not spunky enough for me.
It's just so safe and I love how classy and lovely it looks. Not sure if I want it again though. I was thinking this time to Ombre it Rose colored, or more of a reddish hue. :)
Redder hair suits me for some reason. This is super safe too though, lol. If i had a pair of balls, I'd do this:
Chris says it looks warlocky and he said it would suit me. I'd love to try it as I've had red/burgundy hair before. :P It was long ago though. Lemmie look for the picture.
I think that was like circa 2005ish.
I've also had a blonde moment. Chris likes it, lol - and he would, but it's not so much my cup of tea.
yeah okay so it's pretty cute. I know it sounds cocky, but I'm pretty comfortable sporting any color of the rainbow.
I don't know what I'll do to my hair. It hasn't been this black since 2005, and when I have black hair fully like this, i look so goth.
I just think i look best as a brunette:
The infamous JR red shirt (outting me as a girl and not a boy in Dinosaur/Ner'zhul) picture. Conin was a jerk and linked my myspace. LOL <3
This below was actually my favorite brunette color:
It's hard to tell here, but my hair was a warm milk chocolate color. Circa 2007. The fucked up (or freaking awesome) part is that I still actually kinda look like that. Thank god for asian genes.
It's funny but people mistake my ethnicity all the time. I'm used to people looking at me just thinking I'm some type of asian mix or something. Most regularly, people think I'm Korean mixed or Chinese mixed. I've also gotten mexican (while I was in high school), Hawaiian, and mixed European of some sort (hapa).
I'm legally, half Japanese (Specifically Hiroshima and 1/4 Ainu - my Jiichan has bluish gray eyes), and half Mistisa (Spaniard blood, but Filipino descent) chinese. I'm not chinese - there's like a sliver of chinese there that doesn't count at all. My mother is the ONLY child that looked retardedly more asian than her brothers and sisters. For the love of god, lots of my cousins have green eyes and are fucking gorgeous. No seriously, my mother's side has been blessed with the beautiful stick. All of my girl cousins are gorgeous. :) <3
Damn, I would post pictures but I'm in a time crunch so I can't.
I was hoping that the recessive genes would come through and bless my children with gorgeous eyes. Don't get me wrong, I'm completely satisfied with the shape of mine, lol - but brown eyes can be so boring.
Grass is always greener, I guess.
Anyway, that picture above (the xmas no moo picture) is when Smoothie (Brandon, a friend of Frank's and mine irl) asked me if I was half white. I never really thought about it - nor cared. I just always thought I looked super Asian. I know I do have some spanish features, i.e. my curly hair or my boobs. They're not huge, but they're definitely not average Asian bobos, LMAO. That's another story for another day, but I've been a full D/small DD for a long time. They're just wider than torpedo, so they look smaller than they are. The mass is still the same - so if I wear a push up bra, they look fucking massive.
Yeah okay not super massive, but like I said, not typical Asian boobs. I went to Japan for a trip one year and went lingerie shopping with a cousin of mine. They fit you and everything - so you have to get naked (topless) as they measure you. I was an EE in Japan. I was teased about having porn star boobs. Hahaha - So every once in a while when I complain about being flat chested, I reflect back to my situation in Japan where they joked about my breast size.
Anyway back to ethnicity and away from boobs.
I never think that the spanish really shows through, but every once in a while - it does. Like my light skin - or since I have an inbetween skin color, not quite pale and not quite olive (asian) but super light skinned, I can pretty much wear any makeup color and have it suit me.
Okay this is coming off to be a really arrogant post - and that wasn't the intention.
I just woke up happy because THIS is my drama right now. In this moment. My drama is choosing what hair color I want and the awesome part is knowing I could choose any and still rock it.
YES!!! The self worth and self esteem is returning.
So despite all the bullshit that goes on in my everyday life, know that I'm doing okay. Know that my drama involves what kind of hair color I want and how I want to decorate my house for xmas (yes, I'm planning already. It's my favorite holiday of the year).
I love you all and I'm working on being happier in life one step at a time.
xo
M
P.S. It also helps that we're picking up a cheque from our refinancing that allows me to buy a new CHAIR and wipes our debt (from Izzy's birth) completely!! Not to mention, we've consolidated the car loan, so we're completely debt free. YAY!! YAY YAY YAY YAY!! :D :D :D The small victories in life.
