Now justin is mad at me. Greeaaaat.
He says he's not mad, but he also won't play d3 with us.
Dear Lord.
Seriously, I have the right to walk away. It doesn't matter what I think or what they think I think. I'm allowed to end things. Jesus.
You want an explanation?
You don't get one. Sheesh!
I don't need to apologize for ending anything and I don't need to apologize for being hurt. I also, also, also, don't need to fucking hear an explanation just to ease your heavy heart.
You and Justin think I'm wrong - that's fine. Your intentions may have been legit (for all I fucking know). The point was, I still got taken advantage of emotionally, anyway. You're there for me when you need something, but it's different when it isn't convenient for you. Lol mistake or unintentional, I don't care. Either way, the end product was the same.
I'm sorry I ruined your September and/or summer by being married. I'm sorry that living in "Nazi Canada" burdened our friendship. Like seriously, what do you want me to say? This is retarded because you knew what kind of relationship friendship you were getting into to begin with. It's not like I hid anything.
I'm sorry that it worked out the way it did. I'm an awesome best friend and expect awesomeness in return. I'm sorry that it's so hard to be friends with me. Trust me, I know all about the difficulty in maintaing close friendships with me considering I've lost all my close best friends (basically) for the same reasons.
Despite it all, I don't have sympathy because you knew all of this yet you still persevered. It was a kind gesture but we all knew there would be serious repercussions. Which is why I didn't want you to fucking tell the world - because I knew it would end at some point and I would literally become the lightning rod of hate and blame yet again.
So no explanations, no apologizing, nothing. I don't need or want anything from you. It's already taken its toll on me. I don't want to deal with any more.
Happy trails with your new void filler. I hope it works out for you better this time, as in - I hope you actually truly care about this one for her sake.
xo
eM
